A little over two years ago, I had a dream. Really, more of a nightmare.
In this dream, I was going about my usual business, which is being a stay-at-home-mom to three little ones {at the time}. In my house, I always keep all my blinds and curtains open because I love my home to feel light and open. As I was taking care of day-to-day things, the doorbell rang. I opened the door and there was a man and a woman at the door. They didn't really introduce themselves, but they wanted to come inside. I told them "no" for whatever reason, and shut the door. {My husband is always telling me not to answer the door if I don't know who it is, but I did in the dream...and sometimes I do for real.} So, a while after I shut the door, I go down to my family room where we have a big open sliding door which is one big window. I see this couple outside in my backyard, trying to come into my house from the back. So I shut the curtains. {Smart, huh?} For some reason, in this dream, I just knew that they were trying to come in and get my daughter. Not my other two kids, just my daughter.
That was it. That was the dream.
What happened next is a scene right out of a movie. I literally sat up straight in my bed, huge eyes, and wide awake! I only had one thought:
"Make your blog private." The dream had nothing to do with blogging, but that was the only thought in my mind. When I started blogging, I would post at least 4-5 times a week. I used it as my therapy, sometimes writing about my kids, other times writing about my random thoughts. I have enjoyed writing since I was in 6th grade and like to create stories or prose from my life, or maybe what I wish was my life. However, after I made my blog private, I have stopped writing. I post pictures of my extremely cute family; how the kids are growing, vacations we have, etc. But there is no writing. So maybe I am creating this blog so I can write again {without all the tiny details of my family}.
In the last year or so, I have felt like a different person, for reasons that I may get into later. I haven't really been myself, and I'm hoping this might help, so stay tuned!